If It Feels Good Do It

When I was 16 I thought to myself, “Why go through all the trouble of using hair conditioner? I’m not a model.” When I was 17 I thought, “If conditioner is so fancy, why use shampoo? I should just use hand soap.” Then one day I turned 18. I said, “It’s time to start using [...]

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Long Beach and cowboy boots do not mix well. Flip-flops either, in the part that I live. # Happy Not Quite Important Country Day. Happy USA Lite Day. Happy Off-white Paint of the North American Continent Day. Happy Canada Day. # Watching Buffalo 66 in my room by myself using headphones and not on drugs. [...]

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It’s time to try something different. I sometimes go a little bit overboard. That’s ok to do say, once a week. The past few months though, I’ve been getting drunk and and high a lot. Weekends, weekdays, whatever. And the New Orleans/Las Vegas trip was the apex of that. Actually, I have gotten stuck within [...]

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I must be the only one in my family who drinks coffee. Well, my father drinks coffee. But he’s not really, “in my family.” He’s just my dad — an extreme individualist who lives in the mecca for such people, Los Angeles. My mother inherited her drinking habits from her own mother, who is British. [...]

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Then one night a girl I’m too in love with gives me a copy of “The Stranger,” by Camus. She found the book on the ground. It belongs to Aragon High School. Or it used to. At around midnight I go to Heidi’s Pies, a 24-hour diner in San Mateo. I look through the names [...]

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Generally people complain too much. The first day after I’m back I wake up not feeling well. Mentally. But I consider why. Why did I feel better in Portland? Why couldn’t I just do the same things here that I was doing in Portland? I believe in making the most out of one’s situation. Well, [...]

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I feel like shit. That’s how I would summarize my thoughts. Part of the reason is of course, re-entering San Mateo. But there is more to it than that. There are a few things I normally do not think about. That’s because whatever I do think about, I think about intensely. I trip out over [...]

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People sometimes think I’m a Raiders fan. Wrong. It’s an obsession. I got my 2008 season ticket package yesterday. It was a package, literally. Like, it came in a box. Inside was all kinds of shit. My favorite thing besides the tickets was the FAN CODE OF CONDUCT, with a huge list of prohibited actions. [...]

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In any relationship there is a before, a during, and an after part. In a monogamous relationship, I’m only into the before part. Fuck the rest of that shit. Just kidding. That’s not really the way I feel. Or, I guess I should say, I don’t know if that’s the way I feel or not. [...]

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OTHER I talked to a good friend of mine over the weekend. He’s married to this dream girl, who he loves a lot. A few years ago, he finished his P.h.d. and now he has a great job and makes a lot of money. His wife makes a lot of money, too. But when I [...]

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